“Seeing into darkness is clarity. Knowing how to yield is strength”
Moving forward after treatment for breast cancer can feel really confusing. On the one hand, you’re glad it’s over. On the other hand, it can feel tough because the intense focus of treatment is gone and there’s an empty space inside of you that can fill up with all kinds of scarey thoughts and horror stories. Oftentimes the people around you want you to be ok and celebrate. So how come it doesn’t feel like a celebration? Instead you may feel a pressure to reach the “new normal” that is talked about or to quickly find some deeper meaning to the whole ordeal.
I think that it is really important to yield to your own experience, to validate what you have gone through and what you are going through now. It’s not wrong to be afraid of impending check-ups and there’s nothing shameful about worrying whether the treatment actually worked. Accepting our experience and holding it with kindness allows us to find our own clarity. Give yourself the gift of time and space. Take a breath. Allow yourself to find your own path …